UPDATE.  i am coming back, and i love everyone who has reached out to me.  i had a bit of a meltdown before posting that original post,  and i haven’t been as bad with my anxiety for a long time.  but i work a highly stressful job,  with a lot of consequences if i mess up,  and that can happen when i am not 100% okay myself.  coming on here and constantly facing you manipulative,  racist,  anti-black fucks,  knowing full well that i am living with colourism for being as black as black gets every day of my life.  i don’t get to turn the computer off and stop facing this shit,  i have to live with it every single day.  so yeah,  right now,  i need to take time.  i will be logging back into discord,  hopefully this weekend,  and i do love all the people who have come to me to check in or commented on my post,  but i spend my days as a therapist,  so i need to make sure that i am as stress free in my personal life as possible.